The longing soul

How can I explain a suffering that I don’t understand?

When you see me smile, that doesn’t mean that my heart leaps for joy.

At times my smile is a sign that “Sometimes My Inner Lifes Empty”

The sound of the rain beats across barren land

But I like the rain, somehow that sound soothes my raging soul

When the dry season is over and the rain pours, how beautiful the transformation

Yellow fields become luscious green, rivers flow once again, flowers sprout up from seeds of old

I was told that land is my soul, cracks in the dry ground and seeds with no growth

I see hovering above the land the crows, looking to sweep down and steal from the host.

The farmer knows, he knows that this land needs watering, but he’s been afraid because he got used to the plain

Oh my inner being, wake from your slumber! Lift up your eyes for the aurora will soon arrive

Kiss adeus to death and say hello to life, Sheol has no place for you, a place in heaven has been reserved

Embrace and cleave to the cloak of righteousness, blessings will flow like the Amazon

So take heart… For you may break some days, but you will never fall apart

Psalm 62:5 yes, my soul, find rest in God, for my hope comes from him

Love and God bless



Power restrained – a great power indeed

The lion causes man to gaze in awe with reverent fear. Man knows his strength compared to the lion is weakness, no matter how many gym sessions attended. The lion can destroy a human with those powerful jaws while pinned down under the lions strength, yet men have still come close to the lion as a friend, because the lion is gentle at heart, the power is restrained.

Have you ever stopped to think about the real power of God? That if God wanted too, he could wipe away the universe like a teacher wipes chalk off a blackboard, and there would be nothing mankind can do about it. No nuclear bombs to defend ourselves, we would be powerless to stop God. Scientists say that dark matter holds the universe together, I would say that God’s love allows dark matter to continue its work.

Consider this vast array of creation, each star different with glory and uniquely created. According to recent discoveries, they say there are more stars in the universe than grains of sand on our beaches. Consider the power that formed this greatness, this is a very great power indeed.

The same power we marvel at is the same power that surrendered creative hands to crucifixion.

The image of Jesus nailed to a cross puts into perspective how much the power of God was restrained, enough to allow nails to pierce deeply. All though he could have called angels to his rescue (Matthew 26:53) he didn’t use this power. He purposely allowed himself to become weak in order to identify completely with mortal humans. What is man that he is mindful of him? (Psalm 8:4) Yet even so, God restrains his power consistently for this very reason, because he is mindful of our weaknesses and loves us infinitely more than we could imagine.

Restrained power answers the question, “if God is all powerful why doesn’t he sort out the evil in this world?” Imagine if every time you were going to do something wrong God grabs you to stop you from doing it. You would end up despising him, and then the question would be, “if God is so loving why does he not give me freedom to chose?”. There are reasons God restrains his power. Two of these reasons would be 1). Love would not be real love if it was forced and controlling 2) God does not punish the wicked right away so that they have a chance to turn from their sins.

Even so, when we realize how mighty God really is, we are awe struck and reverently fear his countenance. We learn to trust in his eternal love (Psalm 136) and his continued faithfulness (Psalm 145) and we then become a reflection of his eternal being during our lives hear on earth.

Phillipians 2:6-11 though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to. Instead, he gave up his divine privileges, he took the humble position as a slave, and was born a human being. When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminals death on the cross.

Love and God bless


Praise and be raised – complain and remain

I admit, we British people like to complain. We moan when it’s too hot, we moan when it’s too cold, we don’t like it when we have too much work and we don’t like it if we don’t have enough. Somehow, even when everything is going smooth, we still pay attention to that little bump.

An old proverbial phrase poses a question to analyse our outlook on life. The question to ask ourselves is, “is the glass half empty, or is it half full?

The outlook of the glass is said to determine our worldview. Half empty – negative outlook. Half full – positive outlook, it’s really that simple. How can you know which one you are? When you heard this question which glass did you picture? This most likely determines your outlook. I was asked this by someone after a really tough time, and to my surprise I still said half full.

The title complain and remain, praise and be raised was termed by the renown teacher Joyce Meyer.

Her story, which she shares openly, is incredibly powerful. She was sexually abused for 15 years by her father and carried deep wounds for many years into her Christian/adult life. By the power of God’s grace and her courage to forgive her father, she found restoration and now leads a global ministry enabling others to find freedom and healing. Even with all the trauma she has faced, she discovered the power of praise and how this can change the direction of a person’s life.

Complaining never changes a situation for the better, it simply magnifies the very thing we are complaining about. The more we complain the bigger the situation appears, and this then blocks our ability to see the positive. The Israelites loved to complain in the wilderness: Exodus 16, numbers 11. This is why a simple less than 2 week journey took 40 years! They complained so they remained.

When we develop the ability to praise God in the midst of difficulty, we begin to see miracles. In Acts 16:16-40 we see the physical manifestation of the power of praise. Paul and Silas praised God while in prison and the chains broke and every prison door flung open. Praise breaks our chains and releases us from a burden of heaviness. Sometimes it doesn’t make sense because things just don’t seem to change, but stick with praising and in the perfect timing God will elevate you and transform your situation.

3 reasons why a Christian complains:

1) pride

2) wrong view of God

3) bad experiences

If we examine our motives we will discover the root cause to our complaining and then we can work on the solution.

Ephesians 1:5 let us praise God for his glorious grace, for the free gift he gave us in his dear son

Love and God bless wonderful people


I need to change, not you

Where does change start? It starts with me; with a decision to no longer be a certain way or allow certain things to affect me anymore. It begins with a conscious awareness of my own areas of weakness to enhance my commitment to make the necessary change. It is the slow discipline of daily putting into practice the areas that one wants to change, and it is about being consistent in the commitment.

The reason why most people don’t want change is because we live in the fast food generation and expect quick results when making changes. Do wrestlers get big without consistently training? Do you think scientists just happen to know all the answers without experimentation? Do you think a christian becomes like Christ instantly? Change in regards to character is a gradual process, change in regards to circumstances can be instant and sometimes this can affect our character. Or do the hard times only reveal our true character?

How much time do we spend trying to change someone else instead of changing ourselves? We can be so quick at times to point out another persons faults but fail to recognise our own. We all desire to see change but not many of us are willing to make those changes.

Change begins with a daily decision to better ourselves. If tomorrow you can be a better version of you such as; more kind, more patient, more generous, more encouraging etc then you are well on your way to seeing the changes in your life that you desire. The change in you will be as catchy as a common cold, anybody that comes into contact with you will catch the vibe for change, stick with it and watch others join you in your pursuit for change.

2pac said, “it’s time for us as a people to start making some changes, let’s change the way we eat, let’s change the way we live, and let’s change the way we treat each other.”

Gandhi said “be the change you want to see”

And the word of God says:

2 Corinthians 4:16 therefore do not loose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed everyday.

Love and God bless wonderful people


Weak steps – when the valley is dark and the promised land seems afar

The ground is shaking beneath me, I stumble towards my destination with apace only for the ground to crumble underneath my tired feet. I question my ability to succeed and wonder if maybe it’s time to bid farewell, for the dream appears out of reach now. I stare at the firmament and buck up the courage to ask my self honestly, are my feet really tired or are they nervous? Perhaps my feet are twitching because change is happening, is it change that I am afraid of?

This flexuous journey has smothered my feet with aging scars, but I must continue. Too far have I came to return, my eyes are on the abode, I am not alone. Yet I’m nervous of the unknown… It all appeared so simple in the beginning, but I had no idea all the pain that laid within. Each weak step barely supported this heavy soul, but I still I will carry on.

Sometimes it seems the journey to the promised land takes much longer than we hoped. The Israelites took 40 years for a 2 week journey because murmuring held them back. God is not searching for eloquent speakers, he is just looking for willing hearts.

My own journey with God right now I sense God has brought me to the red sea. The red sea is a place God brings you when it seems there is no possible way, a place where a great miracle can happen. It is here that the impossible way is made possible and you walk through the ground once covered with hopelessness.

Take one step today towards the promised land, tomorrow take another. The steps may be weak at first but they are strengthened with time. You cannot fail if you do not quit, no matter how many times you have fallen. When you walk through the valley, no that you are not alone and that multitudes have walked this journey before you.

Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me, your rod and staff they comfort me.

Psalm 37:23 the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and he delights in his way.

Love and God bless


Loved…full stop.

So many in the world believe that love is earned through merited points of “I did this and that”. Boxes that are ticked in order to gain someone’s love earned with time. It is true that “falling in love” takes time and effort in a relationship, but falling in love is a different love that Jesus speaks of. Falling in love is built by intimacy, commitment, trust and faithfulness, areas that are important for our relationship with God as well as with the love of our life. Yet Jesus tells us to love our neighbour, I am sure we don’t express love in the same way with them as with our partner.

To first understand the love that we are called to express, we need to grasp the love God has for us. God is love, therefore as this is who he is love never runs out. God loves all he has made yet hates the sin that’s tarnished the glory of his creation. How can God hate if he is love? Copy the following link to answer that question.

God loves us unconditionally simply because we are his creation. There’s no ifs and buts about it, he loves us full stop. This commitment of love can never be broken because God is the full expression of love. Many questions arise when speaking of God’s love, we will talk about these in other posts. However, one of these questions would be, if God loves us why does he allow such evil to exist? This, as a human being is one of the hardest theological questions to deal with because it is hard to understand how an all powerful loving God could allow such evil.

All we need to know for the foundation is that God loves us far more than we can imagine. Freedom was given to mankind because love must allow choice for love to be authentic. We are not AI robots, we have free will and God in his love has given us an opportunity to choose. Love and hate are the 2 most powerful forces in the world, forget the nuclear bombs, it is hate that causes the button to be pushed in the first place.

You are loved full stop. And let’s add a ! Because sometimes all you need to hear is this to get you through today. No boxes need to be ticked, all God desires is that you believe in his love shown through Jesus.

1 John 4:7-8 beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love, does not know God, because God is love.

Next post: immersed in a flood of mercy

Love and God bless


Do we need saving? Goodnews#2

The world is full of good people despite what the media portrays of the world. Many have accomplished great things without God, do they still need saving? Of course, it’s easy to notice the addict or gangster needing saving, but the good person who helps the poor? Or the parent that adopts orphans? Surely they can get to heaven.

It is difficult to grasp salvation through Christ when a person doesn’t think they need to be saved. The grand stumbling block of faith is the belief that we are not in need of a saviour. The rich trust that money can buy what they need and that maybe future AI technology can grant them a longer life. Some of those who do good think that these good things can reserve a place in heaven. By human standards then of course it could, but by God’s standards, that’s a whole new level.

Our good deeds compared to God is like a sheep compared to snow. The sheep look white until they are in the snow, then we see that even the sheep need to be cleaned. Of course, doing good things is commended by God and he would love all people to play a part in doing the right thing. The difference is that we can’t rely on these good things as a ticket to heaven.

The problem? 😕 One sin consciously committed, that is, we know what we are doing, blocks the entrance to heaven. Every person therefore needs a saviour whether they admit this or not.

The remedy? Jesus said that to believe in him (in his death for the sins of the world and ressurrection) then they will be saved. This is the remedy. Carry on doing the right thing, but even better is the right thing by believing in Christ.

Jesus said in John 14:1 do not let your hearts be troubled, you believe in God; believe also in me

Romans 3:23 for all fall short of the glory of God

Next: loved…full stop.

God bless


The mission #goodnews#1

Mankind has been endowed by their maker with great responsibility. We are called to be a part of the great co-mission of Christ to share the good news of salvation found through him. This good news of Christ was established by the crucifixion for the sins of mankind and sealed through the ressurrection.

The number one block for not sharing this good news is fear. This fear is stemmed by our own experiences and expectations of how people will respond. How will someone who has never heard about Jesus react when I tell them about salvation? How will someone who has heard about him react? Western education teaches much about Jesus, but you will rarely hear the education system speak of him being the way of salvation. Is this only the duty of the missionaries? To share the good news? Or is this something every believer is a part off? For this gospel will be preached through out the whole earth Matthew 24:14 and who will be telling it? you will be my witnesses, when you receive the spirit Acts 1:8. Those who know Jesus they are the witnesses.

I am guilty of not sharing the good news because of fear, but I want that to end from now on. I love people as God does and desire all to know the truth of salvation and repent and be saved. For God desires all to repent and be saved 2 Peter 3:9

In Matthew 28:16-20 Jesus speaks about the great commission to his disciples before ascending to heaven. We are a part of this grand mission.

There is a way to Heaven through Christ my friends.

Love and God bless

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More to come…