Do you know what the worst form of pain is? It is the pain that nobody else sees and that you do not understand. It is those repetitive thoughts that play through your mind over and over. It is when your mind becomes like a hollywood blockbuster and you don’t know where the stop button is. It is when you long to sleep at night but you toss back and forth in frustration. It is when you have so many unfulfilled dreams while you watch the dreams of others come true. It is when you fake a smile when inside you feel your soul has been hit by a nuclear bomb. It is when you make mistakes and because of this you miss opportunities. It is when you tried your best but nobody noticed you, yet when you failed everyone noticed. It is when you have all the skills for the job but the one who is clueless gets the promotion. It is when you try to keep a good heart and be nice but the world has been mean to you. It is when you look in the mirror and pretend you like what you see. It is when you are torn in so many directions that you don’t know which path to take, so you end up taking no path. It is when you feel God is against you because of these things. It is when you allow lies of worthlessness become your truth. It is when you stop caring because somebody hurt you, you think that numbness is you anaesthetic to pain, yet this is the worst stage!
Can you relate? I know I can. This kind of pain affects just as many people as the common cold, we are all potential carriers of this illness. Our souls can be like a vacuum cleaner sucking up all the dirt that we go through. We become clogged up by the pain we have experienced and end up carrying a heavy weight wherever we go. If we never empty the dirt through tears, support and prayer then we will continue to stuff our souls with dirt until we can’t bear no more. Human beings are supposed to feel pain, but we were not designed to be pain carriers. Outward wounds become scars, but inner wounds can sometimes never seal up. Outward wounds can be seen by the naked eye, inner wounds can only be seen through expression. We are inclined to hide away from the pain and shame, we have been ever since the garden of Eden, but this does not mean God does not see us. We sometimes don’t speak our pain because it is difficult to articulate what we feel in words, so we remain silently suffering. Do you know what happens after silently suffering for a long period of time? We shut down. We stop allowing ourselves become close to people and end up rejecting them. We then reject ourselves because we convince ourself there is something seriously wrong with us. Then we reject God because after all he did created us, so we end up with nothing. Nothing is a dangerous place to be because this is when many give up. However, this is also a place of great potential with God.
If you are at what you can consider the point of nothing, then remember this…Out of nothing God made the whole universe. Starting again from nothing means that your life is now a blank canvas where something beautiful can be formed. God loves a blank canvas because he is the master artist!
If you are not at the point of nothing but you are carrying pain, then make an effort to do the following…Be happy when other people succeed; fill your racing mind with Gods word, pray if your are anxious, worship if your are feeling low, remember Heaven when this life makes no sense, read the Beattitudes in Matthew 5:1-12 if you think you are not special to God! Tell yourself you are wonderful and God loves you (Psalm 139: 13-16) Remember that the most important thing is to know Jesus Christ as Lord and saviour. If you believe in Jesus and and have accepted him into your heart then you are already in the will of God! When you put into practice all these things, God in his goodness will heal those inner wounds. You don’t need to strive to make a name for yourself on earth when God already knows your name in Heaven. You are someone special, I am someone special and we have an eternal purpose!
John 6:40 for my father’s will is that everyone who looks to the son (Jesus) and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.
Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in christ Jesus.
If you do not know Jesus and you want to, pray the prayer below and comment as it would be great to pray for you!
Lord Jesus, for too long I’ve kept you out of my life. I know that I am a sinner and that I cannot save myself. No longer will I close the door when I hear you knocking. By faith I gratefully receive your gift of salvation. I am ready to trust you as my Lord and Savior. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for coming to earth. I believe you are the Son of God who died on the cross for my sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Thank you for bearing my sins and giving me the gift of eternal life. I believe your words are true. Come into my heart, Lord Jesus, and be my Savior. Amen.
(Prayer above written by Dr Ray Pritchard)
Thank you and God bless!