I am not a failure, it doesn’t matter how many times I have fell.
Each time that I have stumbled, it’s given me a story to tell.
Yeah I’ve messed up, sometimes I wonder if this is the last time.
Yeah I’ve pretended to be okay, told everyone I was fine.
While deep inside and in my mind, this pain was eating away at me.
God I know you are there but why are you so hard to see?
I’ve been in that place again God, a dark place I didn’t want to go.
I did my best to stay away from there, I didn’t want this pain to show.
But it was to much to bare, I thought about everything I had been through.
Then I examined those voices in my head, and realised that they were not true.
For years I believed my life was doomed to fail, oh that person could be the one, oh and now they are taken, well I guess that ship has sailed.
Past experience shaped the present, I thought that’s just how it was.
But this was a stronghold built on a lie, destroyed by the power of the cross.
When my path crossed with Christ, things changed.
I looked at life differently, now things didnt seem the same.
These lies became exposed, useless, waste of space – Non No No!
Just because things didnt work out the way I expected, it doesn’t mean things didnt work out for good.
Jesus himself was rejected, but he knew he could save humanity by shedding his blood.
So I look back today, as someone with a future and a past, and I realise the best I can be is myself, I no longer need a mask.
Gods got me in his hand, and somehow has a master plan.
Today in strength I can stand, today I say I can!